Today was confirmation...
So happy it finally came!!!
But it's also so sad.....
Cat. Class gonna finish lao T.T
Anyway while the class were gethering downstairs
And we had to seat our appointed seats....
Theo suddently sat beside me...
And during the mass we were like....
Talking and talking.....
After mass i get to find my friends...
I took a picture with luke, katrina, my group the guys and mellisa...
And when i was goin to take with theo we could'nt find keef or else we would be like fairsians confirmed.....
And mellisa used her camera so i do not know if the picture came out nice......
oh yar.. most of the picture my eyes were close cause of my contact lense...
Then after that i went home....
And had steamboat for lunch....
And it was like so hot that day!!!
But anyway i appriciate it.... ^^
My godparents gave me a medal for my confirmation present....
My sis gave me a card... haven really read it yet ;p...
Anyway today i had a great time
And if only everyday was today....
Life would have been great
2facedfreak
6:31 PM
Actually don't want to post today 1...
Then now also got nothing to do
now only 11.35 thurday at night... alone in my room
Thinking of her
Thinking of what she said
And how she treated me.........
I now feeling very vexed........
I'm having mixed feelings.... sadness, disapponted, fustrated......
I keep thinking that i still have a chance but everytime i think that i have chance i'll think that she said she "don't want to get into a relationship until 18" and she said "when both of us started out the starting was still enjoyable"
Then after that i think....
Even if i wait for her until 18....
And follow her go ITE or private..
she might not like me by then....
I also she now HATES me...
Every time give me attuide one lor.....
Hate her current attutide problem......
Still prefer her when she was last time....
A positive kinda person....
Now is like she took all my negitivity and use it lar......
Then i kinda feel responsible....
Cause our 1 was the last one the after that then she say don't want any until 18......
And i still want to be with her one lor!!!!
I dunno lar....
Now my life seems a little more comlicated....
I only know 1 thing she don't like bout me......
My hatred to make decition.....
And my desire to die....
By the way
I've been keeping away from all my friends.....
and i kinda prefer it and i dunno why....
Maybe i need someone to lend me a lisenting ear......
and give my some advice....
Well i'll also know that person will never come...
Bout the decition thing....
I dunno why but i really hate amking decition......
And i don't really like using my brain that much......
I kinda like my happy-go-lucky life not the one with twist and turns....
But now my life and unhappy and lonely.......
and i wanted to ask her why she said those thing and i wanted to hear it from her personally....
But everytime i try talking to her.....
I can hear from her voice that she is angry....
And since i love her...
I diffinaltly won't want to hurt her or make her angry.....
Thats why up till now.....
I'vw not yet build up the courage to ask her......
And i'll no more chances any more.....
Cause schol is already over......
I'm already missing her....
Even though it's a few hours only.....
I'm thinking bout her and....
feep down inside.....
in the depths of my heart.....
I still love her and....
Still want to be together together....
And i keep remebering every thing that we had together....
My love i know you won't be able to read this but then...
I still wanna tell you....
Princess I love you and i just want t be with you till the end of time
2facedfreak
8:34 AM
Tomorrow collect repot book lao.....
Sain lar...
My grades like shit lor!!!!
Haiz then today also got info that....
Princess will not get into another relationship.....
Until she's 18...
T.T Damm sad for me sal.....
I thought i still might still have chance next year one lor......
Then now hear this crap...
Then she also say what....
"At first she felt happy then after that......
Never really hear it properly......
Must ask the messenger.....
Shit Lar!!!!
Why the princess like that one.....
I now headache sal!!!!
Marilyn say don't wait for her....
Then i feel like waiting for her......
Sain lar!!!!
Then even if i wait for her....
After secondary 4.........
I won't know where she'll continue her studies.....
Then i won't know
2facedfreak
6:17 AM
Wa kiao eh!!!!!
My grades have dropped!!!!
Drasticilly!!!!
Damm it lar.....
My position in class now 6th.....
Ronald took my science and cpa!!!!!!
And ronald got 4th in class....
But he got most the prize......
He got.....
Maths, science, cpa.....
The most amazing thing is that....
Both of us got the sane marks for chinese
Chinese will forever be tzefook get first.....
Then princess got 2 also.....
But her position not that good......
Anyway tried talking to her....
But.....
She looked kinda irrithtated......
And i passed her a letter to ask for patch......
In the end all i got from her is this sentence.......
''I now don't want to be in a relationship or anything to do with BGR now"
Haiz so sad......
Then i'm also not sure if i should wait for her or not.....
My friends are advicing me not to but i want....
anyway i'm not sure if she wants to patch up....
Well let nature takes it course......
LeGeNdFrEaK signing out
2facedfreak
2:46 AM
Haiz now exam period.....
Haven been bloggin for a long time.........
Also don't really feel like bloggin.......
Done all the exams.....
Execpt chinese and DNT......
Haiz chinese.......
Bao fail 1.........
Don't even know
How to read simple words.......
DIE!!!!.....
Like that how to get
First or second in class!!!!!
Then the maths today....
Got some questions....
I anyhow do 1 lor.....
And hell am i confused.....
My mind is in a whirl.....
Keep thinking bout weird stuff......
And it's not just weird......
It VERY strange......
As it some how becomes true......
And i dunno why???
Why do i have this proble???
Am i becoming a Freak???
2facedfreak
3:09 AM
Haiz......
Haven been bloggin for a long time......
Haiz.......
Exams start lao....
Today was......
English and
CPA paper....
Then english....
I was like struggling lar.....
Dunno how to do.....
Then kena IR
Fuck you man!!!!!!
You stupid fat shit....
You think what....
You fat and big size........
And also my form teacher........
I scard of you is it.....
Bloody hell!!!!
I got name tag lor!!!!
Anyhow give IR.....
I want pass one leh.....
Bloody fucking fat bastard......
STUPID FATTY WONG!!!!!!
Hope you die a horible death.....
Today or tomorow!!!!
Just DIE!!!!!!
Must jia you for my exams lao....
2facedfreak
4:20 AM
