..A World of Nonsense..

I don't know why....
But ever since the chalet...
Even thought it's just one day...
I've been feeling pissed off....
and I'm easliy pissed off now....
and feeling troubled...
and I myself dunno why...
Maybe it's just me...
or i might be losing control of myself....
and...
I might be goin crazy...
I can't take it!!!
I have no idea what's goin on in my head...
I really wish i could end my misery....
I doubt i have the willpower to live anymore....
I just don't know what up with me!!
Maybe I'm thinking too much...
I've been seeing things
And not only that...
Hearing things too...
I hope it's just my imagination...
Or....
Maybe I really can't accept it...
But i really wish....
That we could be together again.....
To start anew....
But I know that this can't be forced....
I know it's not possible anymore.....
But I really do like you and i miss you....

When you left,
You took a piece of me.
I constantly find myself
Down on bended knee.

I think of you,
Every night and day,
Hoping for another chance.

And I'm afraid to think,
You're seeing someone.

I love you dearly,
And I wish you could see,
What in the world,
You're meant to me.

2facedfreak 9:15 AM

Today just came back from the class chalet....
Wha it's damm tiring.....
My eyes also wanna close lao.....
The first day i went....
I met Johnson first...
But i did the last part of the books......
At my aunt there.....
Then we headed to Bugis to meet johnson
Then they wanted to meet at some place de....
Then johnson ate le then like follow....
Ivy and Qi hui buy dunno what.....
Then took a train to Pasir ris
Then wanted take a shuttle bus de....
Then wait awhile lao then.....
Johnson Marilyn and I took a cab over....
Then when i reach also no appitite.....
and....
Not that much people to talk to.....
Then after that me and Tze Fook
Went to the ahcared....
Nothing to play de lor!!!
Then went back...
Walk half way back, aloy call...
Ask us hurry.....
So went back cut the Elize Cake....
Then after that....
Marilyn johnson and me went to walk around....
After that i went to the beach.....
Johnson and Tze fook followed hin....
Had alitle walk before returing to the room....
Then when we returned....
Elizabeth and Bianca-chan DRUNK!!!!
Then i wanted them to be okay....
Then I tried to Help both of them....
Then ELiz.. bloody hell....
Drunk still can chase me away....
But then later....
Had to drag Aloysius out.....
Cause he suddently raise his voice on Bianca-chan....
So had a talk with him then okay lao....
Then the bella also got problem....
But that 1 they settle on thier own.....
But then at night....
When Eliz was sober...
They kept askin her questions lah.....
But in the end....
Bianca-chan still dunno...
and that night....
I was the only one who did'nt sleep a wink....
Cause i was like still worried bout her.....
Haiz... now when i read or type....
It's not making sense.....
Then after the chalet they also wanna go.....
Excape theme park...
Saio de lor...
Haiz know already don't offer to help bella....
Carry her speakers.....
Then after that when we went in....
I did not join the rest for the ride...
The they is Aloy Bella Eliz and hafiz.....
I sat somwhere near the Go-Carate car thing....
But then after that i went to where Bianca-chan was at....
Actually wanted to talk to her de.....
Then She had that look AGAIN!!!!
I think because she also heard what eliz said about me.....
That's why she's like that...
But that's what i think lah...
I also think she'll be avoiding me in school also...
Cause in the train also...
When I talk to her...
She answer as though she's being forced....
So i think my relationship with her is hopeless.....
Then when in the hunted house thing there or what ever....
She like only go to aloy lor....
Every thing also talk to each other.....
Haiz... i know i'll never have that chance to talk to her like that le....
Cause i know that she hates me....
So i have to give up....

Bloody hell....
Just now sleep alittle bit only...
The Bloody chair break...
Then i also woke up...
Then she blame me...
Bloody hell lah...
Must my life be this miserable??
Why must i be put through all this??
Why are all the bad thing only happening to me??
Why can't i cheresh the one i love so much??
Why must she be taken away from me!!
I'm not being emo...
But this is how my brain have been thinking....

2facedfreak 11:57 PM

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!
Happy Belated Birthday Qihui...
Happy Birthday Singyi
Happy Birthday Yvonne-chan

Today was Christmas....
The first thing i did was....
Go church....
Wa kaio.. The bloody performance is damm lame....
and Bloody Boring lah!!!
Could DIE!!!!
After that went to eat at Macs....
I had 20 piece nugget!! ^^
Then after that went home...
Reached home first thing on com...
Then went to CR and Friendster and sent people comments...
After that watched an anime...
I love that anime lah!!!...
It's Called: Elemental Gelade
Damm Nice....
But i think after this anime...

I'll start serously start studying....
N'Level lao!!!
Haiz must start thinking what course to take in ITE all those crap lah....
Damm sain lor...
Don't like using my brain...
But i must really start thinking lao...
Cause i'm aiming for poly!!!...
Tomorrow buying books lao..... haiz.....

Anyway...
Qi yun asked me wether i'm goin on the 27th...
Haiz... I'm actually not sure of myself....
I'm Broke.... and i don't know if i can go....
Haiz... I'm also not sure if i wanna go...
Sing yi and Qi hui also not goin....
I surly will not talk to anyone else de....

Haiz now Thomas they all still in my house playing cards sal....
Dunno how late they'll stay until....
Damm sain...
Going to finish Elemental Gelade lao....
So sad...
I think i go join then for awhile....
Hahas....

P.S: Thanks everyone who SMS me and replied my wishes.....

2facedfreak 9:38 AM

Today went to my aunt house....
To help her again....
To unpack and arrange all the things together....
It was damm hot today......
Took quite along while to put everything up....
But then in the end....
Cause my mother came and complain...
Bout us doing work slowly....
We had not choice but to leave it till monday....
But.... on the bright side.....
We've unpacked and arranged all the books....
The ones which was super heavy.....
But then.....
We left the things that we took.....
During the first time we took the cab....
We also brough back some of the stuff....
Yah those....
Totally forgot bout that....
Well Monday have to go and do.....
Well i don't mind....
I'm getting paid....
So what's the problem....
Anyway i've been rotting at home....
By the way....
That Shi rong....
He can even forget me lah...
Me on MSN keep asking who am I...
I was like...
Wa kaio eh....
This friends also can have ah...
Sain lao lor...
Bo friend lao....
Oh yah by the way....
Today was ralene's birthday....
Wished her and then we talked but some stuffs....
She just went off line....

Speaking of MSN...
Today i chat with o'nee-san for awhile....
But looking at the way she replied....
She seems troubled....
Well o'nee-san i want you to know...
That I'll suppot you...
and that if you need someone to talk to....
I'll always be there....
Cause i'm your o'nii-chan right....
You can trust me with any of you sercrets.....
So don't give up....
Live on and face your challenge....
Alright.....

Oh Yah....
By the way....
I finally logged into friendster....
Sent afew comments.....
and as expected.....
Did'nt recive any comments....
Anyway just wanna say afew things....
To some people whom deffently won't be reading it
Firstly Jun Weng....
Wanna thank him...
For commenting me even though no one is doing so....
Eh i know lah very lame lah....
But at least he did sent...
Unlike those people...
and wanna apologize to thomas....
Sorry ask you add then never accept until now..
Hehe.... sorry bout that ah....
Well i'm gonna watch naruto shippuden now....

2facedfreak 9:37 AM

Wa kiao today damm tired......
Today i also woke up late.....
Woke up around 1puls......
Then let my grandmother use the laptop.....
Then i thought can play the PSP....
In the end my brother took it lao.....
So daydream for awhile then went to eat lunch.....
Then after that i used the computer.....
Around 5plus i had to leave house......
Helped my aunt pack all her books.....
It's damm tiring lah....
My aunt mostly anyhow pack the stuff de lor.....
Haiz.... did like 90% of the things there.....
Then after that because have alot of things.....
We took a cab to
St. Mary of the Angels
To donate some of the stuffs there.....
Then headed to her house to put the rest there....
After that thought can go eat de.....
Passed by IMM
Thought can go there eat....
But then see so many cars there.....
So thought can go to her office the hawker center there eat.....
But before we even reached......
The taxi which was suppose to help sent over the stuffs came lao....
In the end did not get any food.....
So took the things to the taxi....
Wa kaio.....
It's damm heavy!!!!!
In the end still had alot of thing to put inside sal....
Then while we were goin clementi....
Aloysuis called me....
Keep asking bout money lah....
I was like this kind of friend also have.....
Hoilday so long never call....
Then when called.....
First thing is money.....
I promised Bianca-chan that i will give some for the chalet...
It's damm freaking irritathing lor.....
When we reached clementi....
Had to carry all the things....
We first moved the things under the block.....
Then we moved it to the lift....
It was damm freaking difficult also lah.....
There's like ALOT!!!!
So after we got up.....
We faced another problem....
We had to bring it downstairs!!!!
Luckly it was only 1 floor down.....
or else i would have been dead.....
But.... bring it down 1 floor was already difficult!!!!
The bags was all damm heavy....
Then carry hand damm pain.....
Then left the biggest bags and the heavest!!!
Around the stairs there.....
and... Luckly we had the trolley all the way.....
We could have died!!!
Literally...
So we slowly shifted the thing into the house....
The problem was at the doorsteps....
The trolly can't go up at all!!!
So carryed it in....
After shifting every thing....
I was perspiaring like crazy
Hand also no strength....
Had some rest....
Then headed home......
Bought KFC....
Cause my mom was asking for it....
So after buying it....
Headed home.....
Took a bath and eat.....
Wa kaio not that much appitite....
Then my aunt asked my sis....
She go out with which friends....
Then when my aunty mention about her friends....
Nicked name Dwarf and giant
My sis was like...
"Those two sain only then come to me.....
Rather not have them as friend...."
So....
After hearing it....
I also thought.....
Aloysius this kind not havin him as a friend also never mind....
It applies to the other's also.....
Except johnson.....
Haiz... then now....
No one online....
Thought can chat with some people de....
But then....
None of them online.....
SAIN!!!!
Hey johnson don't tell anyone bout what i said alright....

2facedfreak 7:20 AM

Today damm sain...
Everyone log out so early.....
First brenda'onee-san....
But i don't blame her.....
I think she's goin out tomorrow....
Then Juraimi.....
Today catch up with him quite alot.....
But then he say he meeting his friends tomorrow.....
So he also went off......
Then Sing yi came online.....

But chat for awhile only she go offline.....
She now playing audition.....
Then i was also chatting with Hong wei

But then never ask him why go off so early lah.....
Haiz..... now damm sain.....
Chatting with my chruch friends....
Melissa and Charles....
But then dunno mel that much....
So nothing much to talk to her about.....

But have been asking her, kat and shanan to go for mass......
But then...
She goin with her mom....
Haiz damm sain if i go church alone.....
Haiz today woke up thought around 9plus in the morning.....
Cause it was still dark.....

Then when check time.....
12 plus.....
Darkness cause by rain.....
Haiz then been on the com the rest of the time....
Bloody hell lah!!!
The other com still cannot work.....
Mother keep saying me.....

Damm angry sal!!!!

Then was also surprise to see o'nee-san online......
Thought she will go out.....
But then chat with her most of the time......
Today suppose to help my aunt clear up her stupid books and things all that

But then....
Shifted to wednesday or thurday......
Either lah.....
But then..... also don't feel like goin to help......
Damm lazy....

But i wanna find a job.....

Started blogging at 12.47
Now 1.07

Charles went off already.....
Dragon dance
Mel also goin off now.....
School
Haiz damm sain no one to talk to le.....
I'll bore my self to death then......

2facedfreak 8:51 AM

Wa sain lor!!!!!
BBQ was cancled.....
Then stayed at home at rot.....
Before that was chatting with karen......
She also never go out le.....
Cause she goin overseas soon...
Plus her dad want her to stay home.....
Haiz.... Was actually looking forward to see everyone....
Mostly bianca-chan.....
But then everyone also lah.....

Nee-san also say she stress....
Nee-san daijoubu??
Kambatte o'nee-san.....

Wa kaio!!!!
The laptop which i save all my
Pictures, Games and Song.....
All might be gone!!!
Cause the damm computer not working!!!!
Can't even on lah!!!!!
Haiz... damm sad......

Haiz....
This few days nothing have been going the right way for me......
It's damm sain.....
How i wish i had a job......
or be as normal as this humans.....
~Deathwish~

2facedfreak 9:05 AM

Haiz..... Been quite a few days le.......
This week pass so fast without me even noticing it......
Tomorrow Friday le.....
Sis friend: Rebecca coming over.....
The day after Saturday le.....
The BBQ.....
Hm.... conferm goin le....
Cause my o'nee-san told me too.....
Actually alot of people told me to.....
Cause all of them know that I have been slacking at home to much.....
Hm.... Tze fook sms me today....
Did'nt notice it until 8-9 plus...
Then replyed him.....
Then now both of us decided to meet at the BBQ.....
Cause we both long time never see each other and he wanna see how long my hair is.....
Damm stupid lor....
Anyway...... They not yet even plan the time and place to meet lah.....
Dunno how they plan sal....
Just made another sis today.....
Brenda-san......
No now suppose to be
Brenda o'nee-san
I know very lame right.....
Been watching too much anime lao....
Brain corruption.....
Anyway... I've been thinking.....
Even thought i'm goin....
I'll have nothing much to talk to them....
But i've decided....
To tell Bianca-chan how i feel bout her again.....
But i think she'll start ignoring me again....
So i'm goin to tell her in jap.....
If i can get the chance to be with her alone lah.....
Even if it means a short period of time.....
Hm.... i still haven really understand jap the status thing sal.....

San
Chan
Kun
Hime
Sama

I still dunno which i higher status....
I know the highest for girl is hime which means Princess.....
Anyway almost forgot

BRENDA'NEE-SAN KAMBATEE with your love!!!!

Oh yah tomorrow need go optition....
However you spell it lah....
After that need bring the stupid dog back.....
My blog will be temporay be able to everyone.....
Well actually for my o'nee-san to read the encouragment....
and gomenasai if you find that it's not needed.....
o'nee-san anything tag me alright......

2facedfreak 9:40 AM

Haven been bloggin for quite some time......
Actually kinda lazy to even blog....
Haiz... Today thought can finally bring my mp3 go fix....
In the end the warrenty over!!!!
FEELING DAMM ANGRY EVEN THINKING BOUT IT!!!!
Haiz... Then had to do some house work today....
Bloody hell lah.....
Can't even get the marks off.......
Then my mom scold me for not doin a proper job!!!!
Luckly my grandmother was helping me when i was doin.....
and told my mother it really could'nt come out.....
Haiz.... Pass few days have been boring.....
Anyway.... She called me yesterday.....
But then..... Coincidentally.....
My phone no battery and i was at my grandfather house......
So i called her today lor.....
She said i was invited.....
This saturday.....
To a bbq.....
But i think i'll pass on on that...
Cause all my "friends" all will be there
And the "" means currently not close....
Actually..... Neither of us contacted each other.....
So i've concidered them as....
Neither friends nor enemys....
and the only friend that i know will be there.....
Will be Johnson.....
His the only one who contacted me during the hoildays lah.....
and his like busy WORKING!!!
While my so called friends are not.....
and never even contact me.....
At least Johnson made a effort to even thought his busy working........
Anyway..... She also told me on the 27th their holding a shalet.....
For eliz....... and i have no idea for what!!!
Then after that she chat with me online.....
Was quite shocked.....
But anyway chat for awhile.....
After that did nothing.......
Haiz now i'm watching an anime....
Named: Code Geass
It's damm nice!!!
But gonna finish le.... so sad.....
Anyway found some pictures that i really like on crunchyroll......
Crunchyroll=video website
Oh and bout the friends thing.....
I've decided.....
To not bother bout those.....
"Friends"

Here's the picture

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Black cat

Tsubasa Chronicle ova

Yu Yu Hakusho

Ouran High School Host Club

Naruto Shippuden

Flame of Recca

2facedfreak 10:27 AM