Tuesday, June 24, 2008
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Today was feeling a little sick, don't know why.
But got better as the day pass. Was almost late for school,
Cause took another bus today which leads me to waiting for another two more.
So total of three luh. Took the first one, then the second one came quite fast.
The third one was the worse and it's the one that is directly to school!!
I waited super long luh!! But then, was with Ariel.
So went to school, was not late. Talked to Naka and David than went up to hall.
Don't know why but it seem that I couldn't concentrate today.
Keep dozing off luh. After Chapel, Science. Studied on my own again.
Can't wait for next week when the new teacher takes over.
After Science was P.E. Saw our new P.E teacher.
He keep making everyone shout YO!
Played Rugby today, going to have P.E tomorrow again.
After that Recess was like talking in the toilet.
Was talking rubbish luh. It's like in lesson we were still talking about it.
But there were some funny parts but sick parts of it too.
So CPA. I was the one who choing-ed everything again.
Was reading Manga online again. Nothing else to do in there.
So after that Maths. Had to go to locker to take our files.
Was walking slowly and was trying to subside my anger bout some stuffs.
Plus was thinking about some stuffs.
Don't know why as each day passes I feel more agitated.
I think there's something wrong with me.
I'm not resisting this kind of things anymore.
It's like I used to me so tolerant but now it's like,
I'm going to blow up soon!!
Anyway after school, went for lunch with the rest.
After that went home. And now, Going to study again.
Don't know why but now feeling the push and rush to study...
Maybe because my target is making me go into the choing-ing stage.
So have been choing-ing...
Update:
Just got this message that got me thinking.
What if I can't control myself anymore and let my negative side to take over.
I'll be like last time. Hating everyone around me and making them hate me,
Avoiding every single thing and not bothering about anything,
Picking up fights every time. Everything that's opposite of me right now.
And come to think of it, I took a lot of time to change myself to be like this.
And it's like if I ever change back to how I was,
I seriously don't know what I would do!!
Well let's not think about this now and go back to study....
Update2:
Crap luh!! I seriously don't know how to do my maths anymore!!
I'm damm stressed up!!
And I can't seem to focus!! Keep thinking bout stuff!!!
What the hell is wrong with me man!!
I shall play the com for 5minutes than study again!!
I think it's time for me to give up on you as there is too many things that I can't handle that's happening in my life right now and I don't think I can go on suffering in silence...
Don't worry no one is at fault... Actually someone is but the person will not be pointed out.
And if I ever gone back to my negative side stay away from me please.
It'll be titled: "Wings of the lost love"
Super random but not in the mood to care
2facedfreak