..A World of Nonsense..

Oh yah forgot.

Qi Yun
Thanks for guiding me this few weeks on how to do my front side shuv properly.
and thanks for giving me advices for my Ollie down 4steps.
If it's not for you I don't think I'll be able to progress this fast for my Ollie for 4steps.
I like started only last Saturday and you've helped me since the begin-ing.
Thanks dude you rock man!!

David Gan.
It's super fun disturbing you most of the times luh!!
But I also want to thank you.
For not only supporting me but also for the help and tips you gave.
Really appreciate your help and guidance.

Nakapragash
Thanks for being there to listen to my problems and thanks for being so supportive.
I always admire you for being able to smile in any situation.
Thanks for that tip you gave me today!!
It seriously made my Ollie not only higher
But now it's more clean!! Thanks man!!

Muzzamel
Though you don't really skate much with us.
You've alway been my rival cause you always seem to progress so fast.
But I also what to thank you for being my challenge
Because I aim to beat you I found myself being able to skate more and more this days.
Well you're also a good listener and you're always so supportive.
I'm glad I have a friend and a rival in you!!

Zhi Sian
Well dude it's time to buck up on your Ollie!!
Stop slacking too much!!
I bet if you put your mind into it you can master it!!
Well for your love problem, if you think you should give up than give up.
But don't hate that person, it'll only make you feel worse.
Not only worse it'll only make you think of the person even more.
Trust me, I've been through this.
It's kind of stupid once I think back of it.
So don't ever fall into that same pit of despair which I fell into.
Live your life happily!! Be how you used to be!!
But your lame jokes are seriously lame.

Elizabeth
It's been seriously a long time since you skate with us.
I'm not sure if you lost interest in it or you're too busy.
But try to make time for our crew alright.
You're always welcome back by us.
Anyway, stop skipping school already cause the exams are starting
and what's worse is that you have not yet finish your final product!!
Well try your best alright!! If you need my help you can ask me.

Marilyn
Well nothing much to tell you except STOP SKIPPING SCHOOL!!!
Exams are starting already and you're skipping school.
Yes told me that you know that the exams are important
But you're acting as though you don't care.
Well I'm hoping that you can continue coming to school more often
and if there's anything wrong, you know that I'm here to be a listening ear for you.
And about that irritant spamming your tagboard,
You can either ignore him or just change your link if you can't take it.

Katrina
Hey gal been a long time since I chat with you right?
Well I hope you're doing well in JC.
From what I've seen from your blog you seem really busy and stressed.
Are you still helping in the Confirmation this year??
Well hope we can meet up in church again some other time.

Though you may be ignoring me
and you seem so near but yet so far,
I will still love you.
Till the deep ends of the earth,
My love for you will never die.
I'll never let my heart waver any longer.
I have loved you ever since the starting of the year.
I'll never think of giving up nor give up on you.
My only wish now is just to tell you how much I love you.
How much I wish could be with you,
Not just as a friend but something more.
You've always been the one in my heart,
You've taken the place of all the other things in my heart
and now my heart belongs to you.
As I said once and I'll say many more times again,
I LOVE YOU

2facedfreak 6:00 AM

Today is a de-stressing for me.
School was as usual. Chapel was good.
Was singing most of the song cause it was familiar.
Than couldn't help but suddenly laugh cause Zhi Sian was singing.
The way he sing is totally funny. Sometimes high pitch and sometimes low.
PE rugby was GREAT!!
It has gotten more and more rough. Super fun!!
CPA was kind of boring keep doing workbook only.
Maths was mainly talking to Zhi Sian.
After school went to print my DNT pictures.
Lucky the total photo which is 11 is only 4.95.
If it was any thing more I don't know how I'm going to pay!!
Well maybe tomorrow I might go print the pictures of
The Skate crew and Kanchanaburi pictures.
Came home and didn't do my DNT.
Went out to skate!! Met the guys at west coast park.
Waited for them at the stairs place where we skate.
So while waiting, as usual, practice front side shuv it!!
So after the guys came, chat awhile than practiced for awhile.
Started to try to Ollie down four steps now!!
ONLY LANDING GOT PROBLEM!!! WHAT THE HELL!!!!
So after that starting to take videos for our skate video.
I can't blame anyone for doing the wrong thing cause I mostly screw up.
I screwed up the second try which when I tried to do my
Front side shuv it, I did it wrongly.
Than the don't know how many tries later,
Managed to do a clean front side shuv it!!!
But Muzz screwed it up which is like so sad.
Tried like 5 or 6 more times than everyone rest.
Less than 5mintues later saw a police car.
Hid behind a bush than stayed there for awhile.
Saw the police car left so thought the close was clear.
Qi Yun checked and the police car was U-turning to us!!!
Faster skate away and went to the 7-11 near the prata shop there.
After buying drinks went to the tunnel area there where we used to skate.
I still remember Zhi Sian first attempt to skate down last year.
He totally flew out and got cuts on his hands and legs luh!!
It's a place full of memorys.
We even tried to take the same picture that we took over there last year.
Though it's different, we tried to make it look the same.
Kept taking until David's camera had no battery.
So used my camera which I found out have timer!!
So kept taking pictures while we were still there.
Left there and went home.
In the bus saw Justin and Marcus.
Was playing with my camera the whole day today.
Took a completely random picture cause was playing with
The black and white and the other one.
I'll get back to my DNT tomorrow.
Today is a day to have fun.
I shall stress myself again tomorrow.

PICTURES!!!

Random pictures that I took

Muzzy acting as a Jamacian emo.

Jumping picture, Some was too late.

Random picture.

Was suppose to be dancing.
I'm doing hardgay. Muzz standing on one leg.
Qi yun holding his chocolate while David is lying on the floor and holding the chocolate also.
Zhi Sian doing the Robot. Naka don't know doing what.
The picture is super obsine. Click on it to enlarge it.

This was taken today.

Some years ago.

Hell Yeah!! I picture of me playing 4steps.
Didn't land though

2facedfreak 5:24 AM

Today went to skate, met the guys at 12.
Was late though. Was too lazy to leave the house.
So met them and headed over to the bus stop.
Was looking at what bus to take to CBD.
So took 14. Alighted at the bus stop before school though.
We went to broad way, Qi yun was having stomach ache.
So was talking to Gan about his braces while Qi Yun shit-ed.
So he came out and went to the bus stop.
Took 196 bus alighted at Buona Vista.
Qi Yun needed to shit again.
So after he shit finish, took a train over to Raffles.
At Raffles, we skate till almost half-an-hour or maybe more than that.
We had no chose but to leave. Why?
Well it's just that one police officer was walking towards us that's all.
All we did was we went to the shopping center behind us,
Went we were inside, we started running.
Turned a few times and got out from the back exit.
Skate and walked to the Singapore River there.
Waited there for awhile while Qi Yun called Naka.
Waited for quite awhile than went to Marina.
Went to eat and chat upstairs for awhile.
Went we left to go to the city link tunnel area,
Naka came up from that area.
We went to skate at one of the exits.
The one which you exit and has four stairs.
So skate there for quite a long while.
So after seeing another police car go past,
We went down and went to buy drinks.
Went back to City link tunnel and skate there.
Skate for quite awhile than started taking video for our new skate video.
As usual, I'm the camera dude cause I still suck
and the sucky video taker: Zhi Sian was not there today.
So I took the Game of Skate and the intro of the video.
It's damm stupid and funny at the same time.
Well only can reveal one thing of the video.
It's at the bottom. You can watch it there.
So after that took more videos.
It seems like 3/4 the time at city link I was taking video.
See... I'm a nice person!!
So went home by bus.
Taught Naka how to fold straw(drinking straw)hearts
So reached home about 9 today.
Kind of enjoyed today though.
Going to rush out my DNT tomorrow.
So won't be using the com at all.
Well, see you guys the next time I'm in here to blog than.

Me & Gan with his braces.
(Gan told you I'll get a picture with you & your bracers)

You may be ignoring me,
But I will still love you.
Cause you're the one for me
and you'll be the only one for me.
I just want to say this,
No matter what happens,
I will still love you.

2facedfreak 7:58 AM

Today didn't really do much. School was as normal.
Been quite awhile since I blogged cause have been rushing out my DNT.
I finished my Science already but think I'll go through it again soon.
Currently been concentrating on my DNT.
Brought the DNT book home planning to study the book when I have time.
But now have to rush out my file. I'm still at the step by step process only.
Everyone is at project evaluation going to the presentation board already.
I seriously find myself super slow!!
Well Jacob it's time to buck up and concentrate on your work!!!
Stop being so stupid already you freaking useless freak!!
Well nothing much to blog about anyway.
Was laquering my wood again during free period
Than did my folio work. After that during the upper sec recess
Went up to the class room and took video of the GOS: hand deck.
Video's below you can watch.
Before fairsian connect was teaching ghim peng some shits
Fairsian connect started and was talking the whole time.
Stupid dog hair, I think she said my hair was long.
Because she asked me turn towards the front cause I was facing backwards and talking...
Mr Lim never even say anything when he teaches me!!
So shut the hell up luh you dog hair faggot!!
So after school, went to locker and put some things in, took things out also.
So after that went to Vivo.
It's official, Vivo has my best and worse memory ever!!
I'm not going to say what happened though.
It's kept within the four of us.
Well going off to study soon.

Game Of Skate: Hand deck

2facedfreak 4:13 AM

Friday
Went for DNT to finish up everything that I needed to do.
So was doing the cabinet then went to Laquer(how do i even spell it??)
Those cabinet. The most irritating part is,
One of the cabinet was too big so had to sand it.
That it self took quite awhile.
So by the time I finished all that it was already 3plus.
So started laquering the cabinet.
While waiting for it to dry, I went to check on my bigger work.
Qi Hui helped my laquer the big one while
I was still doing the handle for the cabinet.
Thank you Qi Hui
So went back to my cabinet.
Was doing second layer when Mr Hamid say
After laquering must sand a bit than laquer again.
I was like OH SHIT!! Cause my biggest piece didn't sand at all.
So after doing second layer for the cabinets and while waiting for it to dry,
I went to sand my biggest piece.
Than started laquering. Checked the time and it was 4plus.
Asked Mr Ikmal if I could leave my work piece out to let it dry.
Then left it at the back table, packed up all my tools,
And went off. Called Qi yun, asked him where he was.
After that called sis while on the way to the bus stop.
Was talking to her than Jason and Ridge came over.
Continued talking on the phone. Than bus came said bye to them luh.
So was talking to her the whole journey in the bus.
So alighted at Kent Ridge bus terminal there.
Walked to the prata shop and then to the 7-11.
Was called the others and they like never pick up.
I think I called Gan the fourth time than he picked up.
So he told me where he was and I headed over.
Stupid luh skate all the way to Macs lor...
Lucky not as far as last time east coast that thing.
So after reaching Macs changed cause my uniform was uncomfortable.
Called them and met them. Started walking around the whole west coast park.
Than bomb-ed hill and went to Macs.
Gan was taking pictures of the food cause he was bored.
Than went to skate awhile and Naka came.
He joined us and we all skate for a while.
Then went home.. Was talking through the whole journey.
When I was in the bus than I remembered that Rebecca was coming to my house today.
So walked home, cause I already packed my deck into my bag.
So walked home reached home and Rebecca was asking why I'm wearing pink.
Told that it was my class jersey than went to bath.
So after that had dinner and talked to her while using the com for awhile.
Than took some pictures and had cake.
Both of us keep swapping our plates...
Than after she watch the show and finished eating.
Me and my sis sent her down.
Yeah that's all for friday...
Oh yah Happy b'day Becky

Por-fessional photographers

The path which we bombed

Rebecca and me

My sis, Rebecca and me

Saturday
Skate session became shopping session.
Gan was bent on not bringing his skate board.
So because I left house early and Qi yun late reply of the message.
(I'm not blaming you I think you were still sleeping)
I didn't bring my deck. So morning met Ralene, Jing Fand and one Sec5 girl.
All from art one. Wait for them at the bus stop.
So after that we went to NUH together cause Amber was in there.
But when we went there they said they could not find her particulars.
So we kept trying to call her but she did not pick up.
So after that they used another computer and check for us again.
But this time they found it but she was not admitted into the hospital at all.
So we tried calling her again than had lunch at the hospital.
After that went 7-11 bought some things and went to the gift shop.
Spent some time in there doing some stuff than we left.
So followed them to school bus stop and waited for the guys.
But after half an hour, Qi yun called and said he was just as the bus stop.
I was like "=.= faster come!!!" So waited again.
So when the bus came, board it than started talked and playing around in the bus.
Was playing with the thing that can be used as fish eye.
After that alighted and started walking around and look at things.
So had lunch at far east and went off and walked around.
I think Gan tio dihorreah(??) cause he kept running to the toilet.
Walked around and then went to forum.
Walked around toys R us. for no reason.
Then we went to Tanglin whatever place.
Looked at the shoes at the Royal sporting house.
I left the guys there and went to church.
So total distance was walk is from: Lucky plaza to Tanglin mall there.
To us it was quite far on feet.
But on skateboard it'll be nothing.
But oh well.

Guess the people!!

Random Pictures

Hand BoardLunch(using fish eye)

2facedfreak 5:46 PM

When I open my eyes,
I'm wishing you were here with me.
When I open up my heart,
I wishing you were the one for me.
When I open my mind,
I always think of the times we spent.
When I open my soul,
It's you whom I don't mind dying with.
If only love was not complicated,
There won't be such things like:
Divorce, two-timing and breakups.
If only love was easy,
I would not be here just thinking of her
But holding her in my embrace.
If only I could tell her how much I love her.
This love that can't be told.
The love of a freak.
LeGeNdFrEaK: LeGeNd of the FrEaK's love illusion

2facedfreak 8:13 AM

Today went to school as usual.
Had usual lessons. Was not listening to Science at all.
Cause think that it's a waste of time listening to her
Instead of studying by myself.
So took that 1hour to study my own notes.
So after that CPA.
Keep putting wrong files in the wrong folder.
Than Chinese, had oral practice again.
Didn't listen as usual and went to sleep as usual.
Than after Chinese waited for Zhi Sian, Qi Yun & David.
Cause picky Wong called David and me but I didn't go.
So David was being asked questions about what we learned today.
So I was like waiting outside while Zhi Sian cleaned the whiteboard.
Than because Zhi Sian was too slow Picky Wong came out of class.
Started to ask me questions but I answered and debated with her with English.
So after that went down and Qi Yun was singing some crap.
So went for DNT straight.
Started work and did it till the end of lesson.
I find that I've not been making process at all.
But I've been like Filing, Cutting and Sanding my work alot.
But that alot made a very little difference only =.=".
So now I have to start staying back to do my work.
Life skills. Showed the video that I spent more than 4hours to make.
So while watching it was singing the songs
And while looking at the pictures,
I thought of all the kids there,
and I find that I seriously miss those kids over there.
And that there is where my feelings showed after a very long time.
And I really mean very long time.
So I was like thinking of what we did there,
How we helped them and the time I enjoyed myself there.
What's worse, I almost cried while watching it in class luh!!
Lucky I was right at the front at the computer there can!!
It's damm weird luh. It's like I'm starting to tear already.
But it's not about anything around me that makes me want to kill myself,
But it's the kids over at Kanchanaburi that are giving me this feeling,
This way of feeling happy and enjoying my life in like a very long time.
I seriously hope I can go back over to Kanchanaburi to vist the kids there again.
And I hope I can go there after my N'levels
I think the last time I seriously enjoyed myself like that was like
In primary 1 or 2. Don't remember but it's seriously long.
So after lifeskills had Science remindal.
Was self studying again this time with my MP3 and my phone.
Finally could study with it openly at school.
But it was for a short while only so... Sucked luh.
Currently studying... Again....
Well going back to study after this....

Amber, don't keep thinking of suicide or cutting yourself.
You might not know but you have many friends around you who cares.
Examples are EX14, Ralene, Dorcas, Winnie, Charmaine, Me, Clifford
And of course many others. So stop thinking of all the negative stuff.
Take your life in your hands and live with it.
Whenever life slaps you in the face,
Slap it back by living even more happily.
And I'll still be here willing to lend a listening ear if you need me.
So now wishing you best of luck for your O'level and tests
And of course for everything that you're going through now,
I pray for you to find a solution to solve and
Start living positively

Ralene, girl you gotta learn how to chill.
Not every one is good in the things that they do at first.
And it's normal for everyone to get injured.
Follow your heart in where you want to go.
Whether it's JC or Poly it's your choise.
But choose the path that will make you live much more happily.
And don't ever regret in your decitions.
Choose the right path and know what's best for you.
Wishing you best of luck for your studies, for your O's
And everything that you're going through now,
I pray for you to find the best solution to settle all the problems.

Jing Fang, sis, I may not know what's happening in your class,
Or what's wrong with those people there.
But you still have us, me & Clifford,
Though we may be from different class,
You could still hang out, consult or just waste time with us.
We're your bros and we're here to listen to your every need.
So what ever happens in the future, you can just find us alright.
I'll pray for your class to be more united
and to not be so idiotic and for you to always find better friends
Than those who always backstab or gossip about you behind your back.

Zhi Sian, I know you don't go to my blog at all but still,
I admire your perseverance to continue loving that person of yours.
And I really wonder how you can have that much faith in yourself.
I really admire that part of you, that part of forever being cheerful
And always being tolerant with people even if they start saying you.
Well I'll pray for you to find someone whom you really love,
And whom the person also love you back as much as you love the person.

David, nice one dude. The stiched part looks more like decayed tooth now.
Anyway, good luck with the bracers thing and hope you do get your colour.
Anyway, good luck with your that girl problem.
Noticed that you stopped putting such words on your blog anymore.
Hope that it's settled peacefully and hope that you're happy the way you are now.
Well what ever the reason go for it.
Me and the others will back you up.
Not matter the reason, we're your friends.
You can find us if you need any help or anything.

Qi Yun, You're seriously a very good friend.
You always put people before yourself.
That's your best point as a friend but it's also your down bringing.
Cause when you start thinking of your friends problem.
You stop focusing on what's more important,
Like for example, your studies.
That's why stop having concern for your friend,
Well not say NOT, but not so much.
You still have your future and your studies to work towards to.
And you need not worry about your grades.
I'm confident that if you put in your best of effort,
You'll be able to reach what you aim for.
I'll pray for you to let your knowledge be widen
and be able to do what you usually can't.

Yi Feng, Yo bro, Although I don't know the progress now,
I seriously hope things can work out for you.
Well not that things are working out for me.
But I rather it's me whose suffering instead of you.
And it's seriously very fun to be around you.
Bro, I'll pray for you to have your wished come true
And that you'll do well in your this years N's and next years O's.
I will for sure come back and visit you!!

I don't know why there's some certain dedication which sounds like
I'm dying and saying my last words instead of wishing them well.
But what I said is what I have thought for so long,
and since I can't say it in your face/s than it'll be on my blog.
Well to those whom I gave dedication to.
I pray for all of you to lead a good life
As I don't want any of you to stray down to my kind of misery.
Though I may not know how some of you are feeling now,
I really hope that God will guide you to the correct path
And lead you to know the difference between right and wrong.

2facedfreak 2:58 AM

The love that I want,
Is the love I'll never get,
The life I want,
Is the life that I'll never live.
So what's is there left in life,
When it's just experiencing
Sorrow, pain and suffering
And when it makes you miserable.
Death, the only hope.
Death that grants everyone
Peace, quietness and emptyness.
The emptyness and quietness that
Will never let you down
And the peace that never
Leads you astray.

2facedfreak 2:24 AM

Today had to wake up earlier. Eldest brother also wanted to wake up early.
So didn't want to fight for the toliet so had to wake up earlier.
Woke up and packed all my other stuff like the laptop.
Than slacked for awhile all that then left house.
Was holding my books while the laptop was in the bag.
So went to school. Reached there and there was hardly anyone in school yet.
So put my laptop and books into the locker.
Sat at the locker instead of the bench cause rained.
So was talking there than went to the hall cause first period was P.E.
Was talking, sms-ing and joking in the hall.
Than wanted to change but Mrs. Samsiah called me to help her.
Had to help her give out sweets to the people who went Kanchanaburi.
So went to changed than put the things at the hall.
Was sms-ing before assemble than tio caught.
But didn't got conficated but in the end had to do something stupid.
Had to take picture of how to put the chairs,
Cause we having oral later and we had to rearrange after P.E.
Saw Vincent so passed him his class bad of sweets.
Left the hall cause did not want to play badminton.
Was running at the science lab area cause Aloysuis wanted to.
So was running and running. Don't know how many round though.
But was sweating even though it was raining.
So went back to the hall than left to met Amber.
Pass her her class bag of sweets and than was talking to her for awhile.
So was at the bench under the building than Aloysuis and Tze Fook.
So Amber went up while I was talking to the guys than she suddenly said
"See luh late because of you"
I at there stun sal... but replied back "why everything my fault one sal"
So she just continued going up while we guys went to run.
Ran for awhile than took Cassendra(how do you spell it?) and Kylie's
Spongebob. Don't know whose one but is either one of them luh.
So Aloysuis made me run with it until the second round,
I threw it back to him. Returned it than continued running.
Went upstairs than took our things and left.
Saw sis than passed to her her class sweets.
After that put my bad in class than went to change.
After changing, slept for the whole lesson today.
Got woken up for a oral practice though.
It's about sms-ing. Was saying everything opposite of what I do.
So after that slept again. Went for English after that.
Mr Ow asked the one who did oral yesterday how was it,
Than asked them to leave the room then we had our practice.
After that recess, played soccer.
Was a super tough match and been a long time
Since we played againce a team that's not from our class.
So final score was 2 all. Naka scored all the goal for us.
So after that Science, was waiting to go into class,
Mrs Ho was scolding 4D I think. Than we went in,
Was taking all the tidbits that was suppose to be our prize.
Than everyone took alot. Than had Science.
Going through answers. So after Science,
Was suppose to do the service learning thing
But in the end watched videos instead.
So after than let the guys used it while I thought about stuffs.
Than I packed the things than went to the hall.
Left my things there than went library.
Went to say hi to the others than went off for oral.
Preparation started only at 2.30.
Was talking to the others than had my oral.
I felt that my reading was not as good as in class
But my conversation was better.
Was talking about quite alot of things.
Not much of questions was asked.
So after oral went to met Amber in the art room.
Told her how sucked I did than talked to sis for awhile.
Went down took my things than went up to art room again
Suppose to wait for Fook but in the end my phone
Sent only after he reached Damia's house.
So stayed in there and talked to sis.
Left the room about 5 than waited for Qi Yun at bus stop.
Waited until 2 of all the bus went pass and they still haven come.
So told them I left first.
So now at home now going to study.

this moments without you
just seems so lonely.
The love that I have for you,
Is the love that I'll never get.
This time that I want to have with you,
Is the time that I treasure the most.
I just want to tell you,
I love you.

2facedfreak 3:56 AM

Been awhile since I typed about my day.
Well today was kind of sucky.
Kept thinking about stuff and of course her.
Only started talking to the others
When me, Aloysuis and Tze Fook went toliet
During the service learning talk.
But in the end it changed again to recess.
They kept changing the lessons today luh.
Most of my classmates were confused.
But during recess, talked to the guys a little.
Went up stairs and had to listen to the talk.
Was not really listening as I was still thinking
Of the same stuffs again. After that we had P.E
Had some survey thing to do. Before that had to find the others.
Most of them went com lab 3 cause that's why they heard.
Well that's what I heard also but still followed the teacher to be safer.
So in the end it was com lab 2.
So did the survey and than Mr. Ng said that after doing,
He'll give us recess. So recess again.
Bought a small bread this time and went to the locker.
Left my things and took my small note book.
Went back to the canteen listen to the others talk.
Than left with Zhi Sian to the com lab again.
Had CPA at com lab 2 than went to com lab 3
Because they having some teacher thing there.
So at the com lab 3, was waiting for the computer to load damm long.
So we moved to com lab 1. Did work there than went to Qi Yun's blog.
After that logged out and wished gan good luck in a special way.
Wanted to wish Aloysuis in that way too but he keep running away.
Gave the same one to Zhi Sian than went for Maths.
Maths was kind of okay today. Very little people.
So after that, was seating the the staircase
It was the stairs at the staff room there.
Was seating there for don't know what reason,
Than was talking to the people whom I know that was walking past.
Which is like almost everyone!!
OMG I'm starting to know more people. Weird.
So after the school was like almost empty.
We left, followed them for lunch than
Ronald and Tze Fook left. Called Damia's bro.
Wanted to leave than Aloysius and Bianca came.
So went to find Dennis. Was waiting for him at the zebra crossing there,
The one nearer to his house but than waited till get fustrated.
Went to his block down stairs and wanted to go up.
But Alousius called. He said Dennis was already downstairs.
So walked over than went to play basketball.
Hong wei, Damia and Zhi Sian came over after their oral
Continued playing with them also.
Played a few match than Aloysius went off.
Than continued playing. Left there about 4 plus I think.
Came home and started studying.
Gave up studying cause came into blogger.
Surprisingly alot of people talked to me online today.

Brenda - Thanks for always being there to listen to what I say.
Thanks for also being so caring and always giving me advices.
Love you and hope to see you soon <3

Kylie - Hi new friend.... Nice chatting with you online.

Amber - You alright?? Stop thinking of all the bad thoughts.
Think only of the happy ones.
Live your life happyly and stop thinking of negative things

Qi Yun - Oi you okay or not you!! You're like saying the f word luh.
I think got more than 30 times lor. Seriously if you got problem,
You can tell me de... I sure will help you de.

It's you whom I think about all day
and It's you who have filled my heart.
This emptyness that I feel,
Could only be filled by you.
And while you're filling my heart,
I could feel as thought this lonely world of mine,
Has become a world where I won't mind living.
It is you who have brighten this empty world of mine
and it is you whom made me who I am now.
The positive side that you have brought out of me.
The one which covered my negative side.
You're the only one for me and I just want to let you know,
That no matter how long I have to wait,
No matter what obsticle I have to go through,
I'll still wait for you and love you.
If only I could tell you straight to your face

2facedfreak 4:11 AM

It seems like my heart has finally got to a decision.
It seems like I'm in love with this person.
And when I did not talk to her today,
I felt all empty and sad inside.
I don't know why but I just kept checking my phone
and keep wanting to hear her voice so badly.
When she was not online and I did not chat with her,
I felt that this world was starting to be
A world where I lived all alone.
When you were not here to talk to me,
Or to just chat with me online,
I did not feel like doing anything at all.
Not going out, not having fun at all and
Not being able to concentrate on studying.
Cause all I am doing is think of you,
Thinking what you are doing and thinking if you're alright.
Up till now, you're the only person
To make me have this much feeling for another person
and this other person is you.
The one that I love so much
and the one that I've put first in my heart.
For now I can only tell you I Love You.
But not straight to your face,
As I want you to concentrate on your study
and for you to be as happy as you are now.
Even if you get hooked up with another guy instead of me,
As long as you're happy, I would be.

LeGeNdFrEaK - LeGeNd of the FrEaK's love illusion

2facedfreak 2:57 AM

This feeling of confusion drives me nuts.
I seriously don't know who I'm in love with now
It's either the current person or the next.
My heart is wavering and I'm just so confused about it.
And I don't even think that we are meant to be together.
And don't ask me why cause i seriously don't have a clue.
And I'm thinking, if I give up on the current one,
I might stand a chance with the next.
But I'm also not sure if I can seriously be with the next person.
Cause my heart is wavering like hell.
I seriously don't know what's wrong with me.
I'm stuck in the middle of two person
Whom I'm holding on very deared to me.
Now I'm just saying I'm in love with both of you.
But once my mind is made up, I'll make my move!!
I'm sure of it and I hope you won't mind and that you will accept me.
I just want to tell you that you'll be my number 1 piority!!

God grant me this wish of guidance,
Grant me to be able to get through this situation
And lord, help me make my decition be a right one,
So that I won't fall into that dark pit of dispair again.

LeGeNdFrEaK - LeGeNd of the FrEaK's love illusion

2facedfreak 8:43 AM

Yesterday
Yesterday was the school funfair. Like finally!!
So went to school normal time and the people made the announcement
We were suppose to put our things in the class room
By 8.30 and than the room will be locked up.
So waited till 7.20 than called Mrs. Ho.
She was still at home!! Making the curry to sell!!
So we went to the G.O to take the key,
So when one of the person came to the office,
Cause the office people called another person,
She office person told the person to lock the door after we take our stuff.
So we went to took our stuff out and cause my class people didn't know,
They told the aunty that the class was suppose to be open till 8.30.
But the aunty said "No, cannot office say must lock!!"
So they got pissed and we brought everything out and brought it to the stall.
Put everything properly already and was suppose to go for the opening ceremony.
Did not go and was seating at the stall with.... forgot who was there with me.
So the day started and it was not my shift but
I seriously don't know why I was doing the shift.
Did it till around 10 plus than started walking around,
Was walking around the secondary school than the primary school.
Than went back to the stall and saw Clare,
told her Kenneth was at the other corner of the field
And asked about Nichole too. Than found Clifford and went to 4C's food stall.
Over there talked to Ralene and Amber than saw Kenneth at his store.
Walked over and talked to him for awhile and went back to their stall.
Went back saw Clifford talking to them so went to disturb Kylie awhile.
But she was busy so went back to 4C's stall. But this time,
Clifford was asking to go to the dunking station to watch
Mr Ow get dunked. Was over there watching the bit than Qi Yun called.
He told me to take over the shift when it's still not yet time.
Told him I'll go there soon and watch Mr Ow get dunked.
After he got dunked finished it was just nice for me to
Head back to the stall to take over the shift.
During my shift, I got pang sei-ed a lot of times,
So I practically was doing the shift myself.
Than because half why of the shift Amber came over,
I told her to sit cause she was waiting there for quite awhile.
So while doing shift work, was talking to Amber.
Had to go to the counter and back to the back most of the time.
So after I ended my shift at 3.40 something,
Ended my shift late but I force Kai Siang to take on the last shift.
I was like "Kai Siang now is your shift right,
Good you take over! Bye!!"
He was like "HUH I do alone ah!!"
So I replied him "You find ways to find them back with out me there lor!"
So after that went around the funfair with Amber.
Went to find Winnie and Amber asked him to make a flower balloon.
And I tell you it look kind of screwed up. So after he did it finish
(which he took quite long) We went to walk around again.
Wanted to try the hunted house but there was so many people.
Oh and I made a mistake!! I could touch the rim of the ring!!
I don't know why Friday I could not but at least now I can.
So was walking around and playing games.
Than at this frisbee throwing side I was like telling
Amber how I'm going to suck at the game.
But when I threw 2 went in like after I said it!!
So the next two was like too low and too high.
Got this toy bread thing which you can put your hand on while using the com.
And you can also squeeze the thing.
So after that Amber tried and we went walking around again.
So after that when most of the people was closing.
Went back to my booth and saw that they were clearing up also.
So helped Amber to take her things to the booth and than left.
Saw Sammuel aka potato, my Senior!!
Talked to him and walked to the place there they were playing music.
Don't know what it's called. He talked to the teachers and than
I remembered that I still had some of Amber's game prize.
Walked back and passed it to her and this time I walked all the way back to the booth.
On the way there Clifford was holding more of the tidbits.
So it seems that it was all Amber's and he took all of it to her.
So was slacking around there than saw a yellow ball there.
Wanted to walk to the game's stall but say Clifford.
Threw the ball to him and he threw back passed around for awhile,
Than I went to the games stall, Josiah gave me something to eat when I reached there.
Thanks Josiah!! I was hungry at that point of time!!
The only thing I had for lunch was a bowl of curry and a bit of the noodles.
So while eating Mrs. Ho asked us to bring the cupboard back to class.
Was struggling with the first one than went to take the second one.
And guess what! The second on was lighter than the first!!
So after doing it was were asked to clear the things on the floor.
My class people was like, WTF!!!! cause the floor was full of
Styrofoam balls!! We were all kicking it to the center of the pile,
Than started kicking into the drain. Than one teacher started making noise.
Then she was starting to nag and was asking us to clear the tables,
So we were like: "We picking up the balls luh!! You just now say must clear,
So we continue clearing luh!!" and this time no more kicking,
We were picking it up one by one luh!!
And after saying that we were counting the balls we picked up
So when she said do the table we threw it on the floor and went to do the tables.
Carried it till half the field and Mr Ow said there's not a need to move the table out.
So we were shouting "Wa lao eh!!!" So went back and did the freaking balls again.
So than they announced that there was not a need to move the tables,
We all shouted together "Wa Lao Eh!!!" again and louder this time.
Ronald also said in a loud voice "Don't know what to do don't anyhow say luh!!"
So continued doing the balls than went home with Kok Loong.
Came home and guess what, I came face to face with Fried Bee Hoon again.
And I was selling it the whole day luh!! =.="
Well too bad that's the only thing at my house so had to eat it.
Don't know why but slept very early today.
And I realize I was at the booth for more than half the day

Today
Went to church earlier than usual.
Don't know why though.
So after that came home and have been slacking here.
Just watched Handcock online.
Going off here now

When I use to think of you,
I don't only feel happy,
But also very peaced at heart.
But after so many things that happened
I'm just so confused!!
My mind is thinking of so many things!!
And I seriously not sure where my heart is right now!!
And I'm not sure if I can be with you.
Part of me is telling me to give up,
While another part is telling to not to,
Worse still, the last part is telling me to be with another person.
I totally hate this feeling of confusion!!
Can someone just get me out of this!!
My love of you is just so unclear.
LeGeNdFrEaK - LeGeNd of the FrEaK's love illusion

2facedfreak 11:30 PM

Wednesday
I don't remember what happen =p
Only remember that time table changed
And that our Maths became free period.

Thursday
Went to school, had the funfair preparation thing.
The morning was super irritated.
I was needing to go toilet like super urgent.
But Mr Lim had his "Reminder & What you all suppose to do" crap talk
So was like complaining the whole time there.
When he passed it over to Mr Ow to talk,
I went to the toilet and wait till they talked finish.
So after that stupid long talk, we went back to the class room.
Was talking the whole time in there,
Then they made an announcement to take the table thing for the store.
So took the advantage to get out of the freaking place.
Got the things and went to the field to do the things
Did everything there and then started fooling around.
Was walking the whole place then when Mrs. Ho saw us,
We said we were helping them move the tables to the hall,
Which we did, initially that is. Cause after she left,
We started walking around again. Was goofing off at the DNT area there.
Then went to walk around again. The guys went for their own recess,
They started playing with Amanda saying Zhi Sian likes her
And all that shit so that they could be together
(Note to take: This is for fun!! and there's no truth in ZS liking her)
So after that was trying to convince her.
It was super funny luh!! She so took it seriously!!
And me and Tze Fook couldn't take it anymore,
So we ran to the drink machine thing and started laughing like mad there.
Went back and gave an excuse.
Went to find Amber cause she had been asking for quite long.
Didn't go in cause she came out, talked for awhile,
Then the DNT technician called me to help them.
So I was like waiting and tying and un-tying.
I bet while I was waiting people must be thinking I'm crazy.
Cause I was just seating in the middle of the half net ball court there while waiting.
Even my junior was asking what I was doing.
So after finishing, went into class for air-con to cool down.
After that went off to the field. After school ended,
Met with Amber, Ralene, Cheryl, Dorcas and Charmaine.
Went to vivo to follow them to buy their class thing.
After that had lunch and went to Winnie's house with Amber.
Suppose to study but in the end played maple for awhile.
Had to fetch his sister so had to go down.
Saw the basketball court and Amber wanted to go there to see guys,
So went there. Amber was trying to touch the basketball ring/net.
She couldn't reach though. I could only touch the freaking net.
Feel so short!! Till now still can't touch the ring.
So after that went up to Winnie's house again.
He called Macs for dinner and while waiting,
We were so called trying to study.
But Amber ended up sleeping. So I was reading my notes.
So after she woke up she saw the Lego.
She started playing with it and then don't know how,
We started throwing it at each other.
So after that called Winnie into the room and threw some at him.
He asked us to clear up or else we can't leave =.="
So cleared up and went outside cause the Macs was already there.
Was watching some channel 5 show I think it's called "The showdown"
Was watching some morons fooling around luh.
Shared the Mac spicy with Amber, she didn't want to eat much at all.
So after that keep feeding her fries cause she said she didn't want to eat it.
After that left Winnie house, walked to the bus stop with Amber.
Rushed back cause had to collect thing for my brother's stead.
Barely made it luh. But lucky I ran to the freaking shop.

Friday
Got ready for school then Amber sms-ed me.
So decided to skip school cause yesterday already said wanted to.
I have no idea why I left house early.
(later than usual time i go to school though)
So went to school. I have no idea why so don't ask.
Saw Nikki, my sec3 twin, Johnathan(is it spelled correctly??)
Ying Ying, one guy in her class and Charis.
So talked to them for awhile than zhao from school.
Followed Nikki, my twin and and Johnathan to queensway.
They had Macs there while I chat with them for awhile.
Left and took 51 to Jurong. Suppose to meet Amber there,
But met in the bus instead. Went to Jurong and then went to Macs.
Had breakfast and went to buy the things the Amber need to get for the class.
So after getting the things she went to top-up her card.
Then took a bus to her house to leave the things there.
And I think her dog hates me.. Well better still...
Cause usually I had to irritate dogs before it starts hating me.
And irritate as in torture... So this dog is smart to stay away.
So after that went to school. Went almost reaching school,
Amber called Dorcas she after that started panicking
Cause she was in FBT and they said suppose to be in skirt.
So after reaching, was waiting at the gate there.
Was looking into the field cause there was hardly anyone there.
But slowly people started coming. Saw one pink shirt at the gate there.
So I was like why pink!! and than my eyes focus on the person.
It was Zhi Sian. And i was like "Hey Amber look there,
the pink shirt one, that's my class jersey"
Then I went to class to take it, found out that my name was wrong after turning it luh.
So wore it and cover my name with my jacket.
Complained to people bout my jersey then met Amber again
After Ralene came, we went in together.
I dumped my bag into class and went outside.
Asked Amber if she wanted to go in but she did not want to.
Started walking around then fooled around with Amber and Ralene and Clifford.
So saw the guys and tried dunking the primary school basketball court.
DAMM IT!!! I CAN'T REACH IT!!!
So had to faster leave cause Mrs Ng was confiscating the balls.
Walked around again then went back to class alone.
Saw Amber's bag there. I was like "great, she just left it here and went off"
Brought it into class and started playing songs.
Left with Amber to her game booth then started walking around.
So after that met Clifford and went back to class.
Don't know where he went after awhile or
Maybe because I was too crazy that's why never notice him.
When I went back into class, I started playing all my metal and rock song.
Started screaming my ass off also.
When Jing tang came in we both took out our shirt and danced.
Even when David Gan came in and saw me scream the song at people,
He ran out. Cause he know that I'll do it to him cause he was the first
Who ever gotten that from me....
So after that Clifford was like "Mrs. Ho coming"
I changed the song to Christan song and was seating quietly on a table.
Started blaming the people whom I not that close with in class.
Blame them for scream and the other things I did.
They were saying I've gone crazy, which I think I did.
After school, went Winnie's house again.
Today got extra person, Clifford!!
I was still super hyper and crazy in the bus luh.
Even Sing Mei, Sing Yi's younger sister,
Said I siao lao. And because during the singing I was screaming, my voice was very soft.
So I only chilled after sleeping in 105 on the way to Winnie's house.
And it was neither on the chair nor the floor.
They had this empty thing which looks like a handrail,
And it's quite a big space. So was like seating there and sleeping.
Till Clifford woke me up saying I was about to fall off.
I from seating position went to lying down position.
I think he was waking me a lot of other times but I ignored him
So went to buy lunch and went to Winnie house.
Was talking and disturbing them up there.
But Amber was sleeping most of the time.
So I think around 3-4 plus when kids central was showing the movie thing.
Amber was sleeping on a pillow on my leg, Clifford was sleeping on the floor head on the couch.
And Winnie was playing his game. Dead to the world =.="
So I was watching the front part of the show till
My leg was a little numb cause didn't move it at all,
Didn't want to wake Amber up cause she'll be working on
Her food thing early the next day, so left her have a proper rest.
Since my leg was numb and the show was boring,
I also went to sleep. Woke up talked for awhile and then left.
Stupid Amber, I didn't throw that pillow on your head luh.
Sigh.. Over already anyway. After that walked to interchange.
Amber bought her things again and then I sent her home.
Wanted to go Tanglin find people,
but thought that my friend would have got home already.
Waited for bus for super long luh.
First bus was too packed so it didn't stop at all,
Second bus I had to squeeze in than can go in.
And the wait was super long.

Amber stop thinking of him alright, there are still many others out there for you.
And you also know that you should concentrait on your O's
So do your best to forget your feelings for him and have a bet of time with your friends.
Don't worry, I will be there for your side too.

Onee-chan, I seriously missed you and I so looking forward to going out with you, well if the others come I won't mind also cause it's also been a long time since I saw them too, Can't wait to talk and see you again. Love you Onee-chan!!!

I seriously so confused with my feelings and about the thing called love. It's driving me nuts!!!

Class Jersey
Pink
09

Great, 4 years together and my name is still spelled wrongly. =_="
I don't know why the pink became white after taking the picture.
And I was already pissed when I could not use my usual name.
NOW MY OWN NAME IS LIKE THAT!!
Fine new name:
Jacob Jordan Jocob LeGeNdFrEaK Soh
J to the power of 3 ;p

2facedfreak 5:55 AM

Today went to school as normal. Wanted to skip but too used to going school,
Cause if I don't, I feel uncomfortable and uneasy and mostly BORED!!
So went to school, reached school can't sleep at the bench cause it's wet.
So was seating at the locker there and listening to the guys talk,
About what? Standard, Maple. Nope not Maple Sea but
Maple Private Server. Don't know when they started though.
I'm not playing it with them cause I'm finding myself non-intelligent
and that why I need to study. Have been studying those few days
But this last two days have not been studying.
Today cannot because have to practice the speech thing for tomorrow.
Yesterday because was too lazy, actually studied like 20minutes,
But that does not count. More than 1 an a half hour than counted.
So have not been studying recently, tomorrow might not be able too.
Grandmother's B'day. Have to celebrate with her.
So continuing about today, After listening to the talk,
We went to the hall together because Chapel was the first period.
Had chapel and before leaving was talking to Mrs Tan bout tomorrow thing.
Clifford was stupid enough to stand beside her so she also asked him to do.
So now both of us kena. So went for science.
Didn't listen as usual and today I was eating in class!!
So after lesson was P.E. Changed and continued eating,
Even when Mr Ng came I was still eating.
Offered Charmane & Dorcas from afar but they didn't want it so continued eating.
Only finished it after taking the things for him cause he was looking for someone to help,
And then he saw me eating so he asked me to go help.
So after that, P.E, was in a different group again.
But battled again a super strong group which consist of:
Melissa, Qi yun, Ronald, Hong Wei, Damia and Aloysius.
All of them except Melissa was good in sports luh!!
I was like what the hell what our group have:
Me, Tze Fook, David Gan, David Ong, Zhi Sian and Bianca.
It's like only me, Tze Fook and David G. was doing every thing luh.
Bloody hell I tell you the guys played rough luh!!
Firstly, the run towards you without a second thought.
Secondly, when the want to tap, they don't, they PULL!!!
Thirdly, they are super rough, they can even start PUSHING!!
Sigh, I'm the one who got the worse injury today.
Firstly I got knocked alot of times.
Secondly I was running at full speed when Qi Yun came in front of me and pushed me.
And I tell you that sent me FLYING backwards!!!!
Everyone in my side of field saw me flying in the air luh!!
It's damm stupid luh, a 44KG guy gets pushed and was sent flying in the air.
=.="... But I think the main reason was because the field was wet so it was slippery.
Thirdly, because I took some stanch thing...
The one the hang around yourself to identify with team are you in, the different colored one
I was holding the yellow one alone cause was too lazy.
Run past Ronald but because he tried tapping my shoulders,
and missed with brought his hands to the stupid thing.
Both of us was at full speed but i think his speed was faster or maybe I'm too light,
I FELL BACKWARDS!!!! AGAIN!!!!! =_="
So after that dumped all of it away and played again.
At this point of time I already got quite a few injury.
There was a last minute and I decided to choing.
All the guys tried to tackle to but i was lucky to avoid it.
But at the scoring point Damia almost tapped me, and his like super fast luh!!
So I cheated.. I slide into the goal area and scored a last minute goal.
Which caused me cuts on my legs!! Damm it so not worth it!!!
So after that recess. After changing and washing up cause there cause sand on my face,
Me and Muzzamel went up to the CPA lab, sat there and talked.
So after that, CPA and than Maths. I slept in Maths and got scolded at the end of the lesson.
Damm stupid!! I don't want to teach anyone anything!!
My maths is now starting to SUCK luh!!! Stop asking me to help others!!
I can't even help myself anymore!! So after that went to locker.
Mrs. Tan was there so I suggested we do the draft there.
So did the draft there and it made me think of all the kids and the place at Kachanaburi.
So after doing it finish I went to meet the guys.
Talked to them then went to play basket ball after re-writing my part of the draft.
Was editing some part and then went to play basket ball.
Started running a little during the match and because of the push Qi Yun gave me.
My bone at the butt started to hurt, almost feel like it's dislocated.
So ignored it and continued playing. Not long later, all my other wounds,
Including the skateboarding ones started hurting. It feels like it was on fire!!
Had a break, went to buy food and ate my lunch only at 4.
So after eating, went to play again. This time I choing-ed more.
I started running more and started to block more tricks.
Started jump shots but my leg hurt even more!!
So after that got trashed in one game 7-0.
This team consist of me and Tze Fook.
Another game was 7-0 we beat them.
This team consist of me, Tze Fook and Aloysius.
So after that Qi yun left. played awhile more than rest.
Couldn't take it anymore cause I couldn't feel my legs.
So after that Damia's brother Dave came.
Watched their match for awhile and then went home.
On the way home, I practiced my speech.
Now going off to try the different tone of my voice for the speech.
Sigh, I'm just so sure I'll screw this off tomorrow.

I seriously don't know if I should give up on you,
I don't even know my actual feeling for you already.
It just seems like my heart suddenly harden,
and that I am confused and I'm not sure of my feelings.
I just wished I told you my true feelings earlier.
Love is the most complicated matter in the life of a human.

2facedfreak 4:26 AM