Monday, July 14, 2008
Today went to school as usual.
Had usual lessons. Was not listening to Science at all.
Cause think that it's a waste of time listening to her
Instead of studying by myself.
So took that 1hour to study my own notes.
So after that CPA.
Keep putting wrong files in the wrong folder.
Than Chinese, had oral practice again.
Didn't listen as usual and went to sleep as usual.
Than after Chinese waited for Zhi Sian, Qi Yun & David.
Cause picky Wong called David and me but I didn't go.
So David was being asked questions about what we learned today.
So I was like waiting outside while Zhi Sian cleaned the whiteboard.
Than because Zhi Sian was too slow Picky Wong came out of class.
Started to ask me questions but I answered and debated with her with English.
So after that went down and Qi Yun was singing some crap.
So went for DNT straight.
Started work and did it till the end of lesson.
I find that I've not been making process at all.
But I've been like Filing, Cutting and Sanding my work alot.
But that alot made a very little difference only =.=".
So now I have to start staying back to do my work.
Life skills. Showed the video that I spent more than 4hours to make.
So while watching it was singing the songs
And while looking at the pictures,
I thought of all the kids there,
and I find that I seriously miss those kids over there.
And that there is where my feelings showed after a very long time.
And I really mean very long time.
So I was like thinking of what we did there,
How we helped them and the time I enjoyed myself there.
What's worse, I almost cried while watching it in class luh!!
Lucky I was right at the front at the computer there can!!
It's damm weird luh. It's like I'm starting to tear already.
But it's not about anything around me that makes me want to kill myself,
But it's the kids over at Kanchanaburi that are giving me this feeling,
This way of feeling happy and enjoying my life in like a very long time.
I seriously hope I can go back over to Kanchanaburi to vist the kids there again.
And I hope I can go there after my N'levels
I think the last time I seriously enjoyed myself like that was like
In primary 1 or 2. Don't remember but it's seriously long.
So after lifeskills had Science remindal.
Was self studying again this time with my MP3 and my phone.
Finally could study with it openly at school.
But it was for a short while only so... Sucked luh.
Currently studying... Again....
Well going back to study after this....
Amber, don't keep thinking of suicide or cutting yourself.
You might not know but you have many friends around you who cares.
Examples are EX14, Ralene, Dorcas, Winnie, Charmaine, Me, Clifford
And of course many others. So stop thinking of all the negative stuff.
Take your life in your hands and live with it.
Whenever life slaps you in the face,
Slap it back by living even more happily.
And I'll still be here willing to lend a listening ear if you need me.
So now wishing you best of luck for your O'level and tests
And of course for everything that you're going through now,
I pray for you to find a solution to solve and
Start living positively
Ralene, girl you gotta learn how to chill.
Not every one is good in the things that they do at first.
And it's normal for everyone to get injured.
Follow your heart in where you want to go.
Whether it's JC or Poly it's your choise.
But choose the path that will make you live much more happily.
And don't ever regret in your decitions.
Choose the right path and know what's best for you.
Wishing you best of luck for your studies, for your O's
And everything that you're going through now,
I pray for you to find the best solution to settle all the problems.
Jing Fang, sis, I may not know what's happening in your class,
Or what's wrong with those people there.
But you still have us, me & Clifford,
Though we may be from different class,
You could still hang out, consult or just waste time with us.
We're your bros and we're here to listen to your every need.
So what ever happens in the future, you can just find us alright.
I'll pray for your class to be more united
and to not be so idiotic and for you to always find better friends
Than those who always backstab or gossip about you behind your back.
Zhi Sian, I know you don't go to my blog at all but still,
I admire your perseverance to continue loving that person of yours.
And I really wonder how you can have that much faith in yourself.
I really admire that part of you, that part of forever being cheerful
And always being tolerant with people even if they start saying you.
Well I'll pray for you to find someone whom you really love,
And whom the person also love you back as much as you love the person.
David, nice one dude. The stiched part looks more like decayed tooth now.
Anyway, good luck with the bracers thing and hope you do get your colour.
Anyway, good luck with your that girl problem.
Noticed that you stopped putting such words on your blog anymore.
Hope that it's settled peacefully and hope that you're happy the way you are now.
Well what ever the reason go for it.
Me and the others will back you up.
Not matter the reason, we're your friends.
You can find us if you need any help or anything.
Qi Yun, You're seriously a very good friend.
You always put people before yourself.
That's your best point as a friend but it's also your down bringing.
Cause when you start thinking of your friends problem.
You stop focusing on what's more important,
Like for example, your studies.
That's why stop having concern for your friend,
Well not say NOT, but not so much.
You still have your future and your studies to work towards to.
And you need not worry about your grades.
I'm confident that if you put in your best of effort,
You'll be able to reach what you aim for.
I'll pray for you to let your knowledge be widen
and be able to do what you usually can't.
Yi Feng, Yo bro, Although I don't know the progress now,
I seriously hope things can work out for you.
Well not that things are working out for me.
But I rather it's me whose suffering instead of you.
And it's seriously very fun to be around you.
Bro, I'll pray for you to have your wished come true
And that you'll do well in your this years N's and next years O's.
I will for sure come back and visit you!!
I don't know why there's some certain dedication which sounds like
I'm dying and saying my last words instead of wishing them well.
But what I said is what I have thought for so long,
and since I can't say it in your face/s than it'll be on my blog.
Well to those whom I gave dedication to.
I pray for all of you to lead a good life
As I don't want any of you to stray down to my kind of misery.
Though I may not know how some of you are feeling now,
I really hope that God will guide you to the correct path
And lead you to know the difference between right and wrong.
2facedfreak